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April 01 Thank YouMy tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all the morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all And even if I could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall it reminds me that it's not so bad it's not so bad I drank too much last night, got bills to pay my head just feels in pain I missed the bus and there'll be hell today I'm late for work again and even if I'm there, they'll all imply that I might not last the day and then you call me and it's not so bad it's not so bad And I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life Push the door, I'm home at last and I'm soaking through and through then you handed me a towel and all I see is you and even if my house falls down now, I wouldn't have a clue because you're near me And I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life June 12 The SpoilsBereft of options, Pullo has taken up "mortality work" for Erastes Fullmen, descending into the underworld as a knife-wielding hit man, spending his pay on prostitutes and a growing appetite for opium. Across town, his erstwhile partner assumes his official duties as a magistrate, receiving local citizens to hear out their complaints and requests. One such request comes from Mascius, an old comrade from the battlefields, who speaks on behalf of fellow veterans. Less fortunate than Vorenus, they cannot live solely on the money Caesar has given them, and they want land in Italy. Already weary from taking on the burdens of the poor, Vorenus is dismissive, but he takes their demand to Caesar. "Is it possible they turn on me?" Caesar asks his new representative. "They'd never fight against you," Vorenus assures him. "But if they're not satisfied, those that have no other skills to employ will turn to banditry and raiding." Caesar decides to offer them rugged land near Germany, and if Mascius refuses it, Vorenus is to make him a personal offer - in the hopes that he will sway his fellow veterans to accept the bargain. Brutus is disturbed to find graffiti depicting him with a knife at Caesar's back. As he orders a servant to erase the image, Cassius arrives to tell him not to bother - the drawings are everywhere. Plebeians painted the graffiti in the hopes that Brutus would rescue them from the tyrant, Cassius tells him, ushering in liberty as his ancestors did before him. "They would not pluck a hair for liberty," Brutus sneers contemptuously. "Plebs love to see their betters fight. It's cheaper than theater and the blood is real." When Cassius calls him a coward, Brutus bristles with anger. He is not blind to what Caesar has become, he insists, but he has pledged his friendship to the man. "He trusts me. I cannot betray that trust." "For friendship, you would let the Republic die." Cassius says with disgust. "I am just a man!" Brutus pleads. "The life or death of the Republic is not in my hands!" "The Republic is in your hands," Cassius snaps back. "The people will not accept a tyrant's death unless a Brutus holds the knife." Erupting in fury at the position he's been put in, Brutus slaps the man and stalks off. When Pullo murders a man in broad daylight, the brutality is witnessed by an old weaver, who chases him through the streets. Screams of "murderer!" echo through the alleyways, sending Pullo into a hallucinogenic collapse, and ultimately to jail. As predicted, Mascius refuses Caesar's land offer for the veterans, and Vorenus makes him a personal offer. When he steadfastly refuses ("I have been true to my brothers since I first spilt blood...my honor is not for sale so cheap"), Vorenus employs the same logic that was used on him, convincing the man he would not be helping his fellow soldiers by declining the offer. Mascius negotiates a higher price for himself and accepts the deal, as the two men turn away from each other, ashamed of their compromises. At a symposium hosted by Atia, she pulls Caesar aside to warn him about Brutus; she believes that Servilia will not rest until Caesar is dead. Her imperious uncle scoffs at her warnings. "I well imagine poor Servilia is not very fond of me, but really, wants me dead? You are a dramatist Atia." Vorenus and a terrified Niobe arrive at Atia's symposium as Caesar's special guests, and awkwardly attempt to mingle with the haughty guests. Niobe has made herself an elaborate dress for the occasion, which earns Atia's disingenuous compliments. When Octavian learns that Pullo is awaiting trial for murder, he makes a plea to Caesar to intervene. "We must do nothing" Caesar insists firmly. The man Pullo killed has been a vocal critic of his leadership, and intervening on his behalf would look suspicious. Octavian secretly enlists Timon to find Pullo an attorney, but there are no takers among the idle lawyers in town. Only when Timon holds up a hefty purse does one come forward, a skittish, underfed young man. Pullo appears resigned to his fate, however, and refuses to help the man find sympathy for his plight. At a trial held before a jeering crowd in the forum, the prosecutor makes a simple case against Pullo: a good man was hacked to death by a wretched specimen, a horror that's becoming too commonplace. "I'll not take your time with lengthy proof of his guilt. Look at him. We all know he's guilty." As Vorenus makes his way into the crowd, he comes upon Mascius, who is hiding a sword. He spots several other soldiers in the crowd disguised as civilians, all ready to pounce should their fellow legionnaire be sentenced to death. Terrified of the political consequences, Vorenus insists Mascius call off their planned attack "for the good of the Republic." Caesar cannot reinstate law and order if soldiers are allowed to kill citizens without consequence. Pullo's nervous lawyer offers a weak case for his defense, and when he cannot deny his client's guilt, he is condemned to death. When Caesar tells Brutus he wants him to govern Macedonia, he sees it as his ousting, a way to remove him from Rome. Caesar finally admits he's uncertain whether he can trust his "son," given his past betrayal, but Brutus insists he betrayed nothing. "Had you told me you were to march on Rome, and asked for my allegiance, I would have given it. I would have judged you insane. But I would have given you my allegiance. Because I look on you as my father...But you did not ask for my allegiance. You demanded it at sword point." Caesar takes back his accusation. But Brutus still insists he will not go to Macedonia. When Caesar invokes his legal authority, Brutus is near tears. "As my father I looked on you," he says. "Be reasonable," Caesar replies. "You are on every wall with a knife at my neck. I would be foolish not to worry." "Surely only tyrants need worry about tyrant killers," Brutus says through clenched jaw. "And you are no tyrant. Haven't you told me so many times?" The morning before he is to be lead to his death, Pullo makes an offering to the Gods, a cockroach he's grabbed from his dungeon cell. He pleads that Eirene will know that he's sorry for what he did, and asks them to give her a long and happy life. "And same for my friend Lucius Vorenus and his family, if that's not too much." At the arena, before a capacity crowd, Pullo is lead into a small ring, where he's greeted by three giant gladiators and handed a large sword. He stays on his knees in the center of the ring, refusing to fight. "I just want to die, alright? I don't want to hurt anyone." The men won't have it, and taunt him with insults. But only when they deride the Thirteenth legion does Pullo's fire return, and on impulse he lashes out at them - knocking out one before slicing through another. The crowd starts to root for him, as the largest of the men wields his tomahawk and knocks the sword out of Pullo's hand, sending him back to his feet. Just as he awaits the final death blow, however, Vorenus emerges from the crowd, sword in hand, and takes on the gladiator - slicing his leg in half and collapsing him to the ground. As the crowd recovers from shock, a roar of approval rises up. Across town, Posca walks stealthily through the back alleys, a fat purse of coins in hand. He enters a dark tavern and drops the leather satchel on a table. "If we employ you again, best not use veterans," he tells the man seated by the purse -- Erastes Fullmen. He nods in agreement. June 02 青花瓷素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡瓶身描绘的牡丹一如你初妆冉冉檀香透过窗心事我了然宣纸上走笔至此搁一半釉色渲染仕女图韵味被私藏而你嫣然的一笑如含苞待放你的美一缕飘散去到我去不了的地方天青色等烟雨而我在等你炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸就当我为遇见你伏笔天青色等烟雨而我在等你月色被打捞起晕开了结局如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意色白花青的锦鲤跃然於碗底临摹宋体落款时却惦记着你你隐藏在窑烧里千年的秘密极细腻犹如绣花针落地帘外芭蕉惹骤雨门环惹铜绿而我路过那江南小镇惹了你在泼墨山水画里你从墨色深处被隐去。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 April 24 D.B Cooper
1971年11月24日,感恩节前夕,下午4:35,一位男子以"Dan Cooper"的名字登上了美国西北航空公司由波特兰起飞的一架波音727客机。这件飞机上只有36名乘客,6名机组人员。 June 28 生命的两种形态一提到《飘》,自然而然会想起郝思嘉,是的,读过《漂》的人都对郝思嘉耳熟能详,但却不见得对媚兰这个人物有过多关注,似乎她只是一个无关紧要的陪衬,而在我看来,这是一个足以与郝思嘉平分秋色的人物。正因为有了她,才有了对比的美感,才有了震撼人心的反差。恰如<红楼梦〉中的林黛玉和贾宝钗,无论是褒黛抑钗还是褒钗抑黛,无不把两者相提并论。郝思嘉的生命是张扬、奔放、热烈的,体现无拘无束的本原状态,就如没有经过人工修饰的野生植物,有一种野性奔放之美,眩目、光彩四射而摄人心魄。她感恨敢爱,爱的深厚,恨的浓烈,从容貌到行为,一切都是外化的,率性、爽直、好强、倔强,这就是思嘉。而媚兰就象经过精心培育的盆景,一言一行都符合道得礼法的要求。以今天的眼光审视,自然觉得拘谨而不自在,甚而矫情做作。但媚兰的与众不同就在于她的内涵,与思嘉相反,她的一切都是内敛的,她的丰富的内心世界,是思嘉无法企及甚至无法了解的。 首先,她是善良的,有一句话说,自小人眼中看来,世上无一人不是小人,自君子看来,世上无一人不是君子。用高尚来形容她是再恰当不过的。在她眼中,竟没有不好的人,她可以在每个人身上发掘出连他本人都未必能发现的优点,她顾念别人总比自己多,即使在临死时,她所惦念的也是除了她自己外的任何人。从某种意义上说,她是爱兰精神的延续,在无形中成了思嘉的精神支柱,这一点,就是思嘉本人,也在媚兰死后才意识到。在骨子里,她与思嘉的精神是相通的,当面临紧急情况时,她所表现的镇静和机智,是思嘉也不曾有的。而媚兰就象经过精心培育的盆景,一言一行都符合道得礼法的要求。以今天的眼光审视,自然觉得拘谨而不自在,甚而矫情做作。但媚兰的与众不同就在于她的内涵,与思嘉相反,她的一切都是内敛的,她的丰富的内心世界,是思嘉无法企及甚至无法了解的。首先,她是善良的,有一句话说,自小人眼中看来,世上无一人不是小人,自君子看来,世上无一人不是君子。用高尚来形容她是再恰当不过的。在她眼中,竟没有不好的人,她可以在每个人身上发掘出连他本人都未必能发现的优点,她顾念别人总比自己多,即使在临死时,她所惦念的也是除了她自己外的任何人。从某 种意义上说,她是爱兰精神的延续,在无形中成了思嘉的精神支柱,这一点,就是思嘉本人,也在媚兰死后才意识到。在骨子里,她与思嘉的精神是相通的,当面临紧急情况时,她所表现的镇静和机智,是思嘉也不曾有的。 她们对于爱情的态度也迥然不同,媚兰是一心一意爱希礼的,她的平淡的脸因爱情的滋润而焕发出的光彩连一向看不起她的思嘉也大为惊诧。在思嘉,她以为她的爱比之媚兰有过之而无不及,她为他而奋斗,而奔波,她以为他就是她的精神支柱和动力源泉。在媚兰死后她才终于恍然:“我所爱的那件东西是我自己创造起来的,世界上并没有那种东西。我自己做起一套美丽的衣服,就对它爱起来了。当初希礼骑着一匹马来—我就把这套衣服给他穿上了,不管跟他配身不配身。而且我不愿意看他这人到底怎么样。”当现实中的希礼一而再再而三使她失望时,她又万般为他开脱。而媚兰,对此则是清醒观照的,她太清楚了希礼的懦弱无能,了解思嘉的才干,她在临终时的托付就清晰地体现这一点,她要思嘉照顾他而不被他知道,实在是她对希礼了解至深,而思嘉,则是盲目的。 |
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